Pretty much sums it up.

See how sweet they look?

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Even sweeter, right?

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And yet... see the undercurrent of aggression? As in "I love you, you're my best friend... and at any moment this hug might become a choke hold"?

That's pretty much their whole relationship, captured on film (not that anyone uses film anymore, but that's neither here not there).

Spring Sing

Brady made his stage debut this morning.

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Ok, so it was less a 'stage' than the sanctuary of the church where he goes to preschool. And it wasn't so much a 'show' as it was a group of 3 and 4 year olds sing/yelling all the songs they've learned this year.

But for my boy... the dark haired skinny one all the way on the left-hand side... it may as well have been Broadway. He was SO excited. He's been talking about it for weeks, and last night he asked if we could go to the store and buy a 'new fancy suit' for the occasion. I convinced him that a button-up shirt and khakis would suffice.

He sang every word of every song with the most amazing little smile in his face-- a little shy, but mostly proud. The way he picked me out of the crowd and smiled at me after every song nearly turned me into a puddle of mush (and picking me out did take some work on his part-- Zack was not nearly as enthralled with the singing as Paul and I were, and so I spent the entire time moving around the back of the church and shushing him). And director's son that Brady is, he gave subtle little disapproving glances at the kids who sang too fast.

When it was all over, he ran to Paul with so much excitement that there may or may not have nearly been some man tears. Our boy was SO proud of himself, and I am even more proud of him.

It was definitely a Moment.

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And then Zack loudly announced for the hundredth time, "I jus wan go HOME!" So we followed the crowd back to the classroom, where the excitement of donut holes quickly overshadowed Brady's excitement about his performance.

It was a good morning.

Train Love

Forget about the animals. For my kids, going to the zoo is all about riding the train. We do it at the end of every visit, mostly so I can use it as incentive to be good ("If you throw that stick, you're not riding the train." "If you're not nice to your brother, you're not riding the train.").

Works every time.

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That's Brady, Zack, and their train-loving buddy Vincent, willingly posing for a picture-- as long as they could pose with the train-crossing signal.

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Thank goodness the zoo (and, of course, the train) are open again for the season. I needed that bribery ammo.

Self-aware

Brady: Look how cute we are, Mom! Come take a picture!

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Sometimes..

Sometimes Brady drives me absolutely crazy. He is at an age where he challenges and defies like its his job (which, developmentally, I suppose it is).

And then, just when I think I can't take much more, when I am tired and testy and short with him, he'll do something like what he did this afternoon. He brought me a book about Easter and asked me to read it to him. And when I was done, he said, "Mommy, I want to write you an Easter card. It will say 'Dear Mommy, I love you so much that I want to be with you on all the days. Thank you for everything you give me.'"

Sigh. I think God must give them some innate sense of when it's time to turn on the Mom-melting sweetness.

Mama Do

I have this almost-two-year-old whose favorite phrase of late is "Mama do!"

As in, Mama do it.

"It" can be anything-- putting him in his high chair, wiping his nose, handing him his milk. The other day he actually accepted a goldfish cracker from Paul, then brought it over and gave it to me so that I could hand it back to him. Then, and only then, would he eat it.

Mama do.

The amazing part is that he no longer cares if I leave the house without him. He'll give me a hug, shout "Bye Mama! Love you!" and then go about his business. He LOVES playing with his Daddy. But if I'm here, he's all about Mama do.

For the first time in forever, he's started waking up again at night (thankfully early enough that I'm usually still awake), just needing to check in with me. And if I can't be the one to hold and rock him through his post-nap crankiness, it's not going to be a pleasant evening.

He knows there are changes in the works, I think. All this talk about Baby Sister has left my little guy a little extra needy. As I seem to be reminded so much lately, I will indeed miss this. I won't always be this little boy's whole world.

Mama do.

It turns out...

...that we've got just about enough testosterone in this family. Even if they are pretty cute.

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Baby 3D is a GIRL!!! Somehow I already knew it, but was afraid to believe it.

Paul sums it up nicely-- "This just got expensive, didn't it?" He's a wise man. After 2 boys, I believe it is my right-- nay, my DUTY!-- to indulge in some sparkly/frilly/ruffly stuff. And given that she'll be the first granddaughter on either side of the family in over 20 years, I doubt I'll be the only one who feels that way.

But let's be honest. A girl with two older brothers will be able to make fart jokes with the best of 'em. I already love her so much.

The Fox and the Ham

These guys...

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love nothing more in the world than the after-dinner movie and popcorn. Tonight we watched 'The Fox and the Hound'... except for that Brady couldn't remember the word 'hound', and kept saying 'ham'. 'The Fox and the Ham' would have been a much shorter movie.

All Zack was concerned with was 'More pah-corn, peeeease!'

They make me laugh.

It took long enough...

...but after 7 years of living in Nebraska, we finally, REALLY played in the snow.

And it took a guy from sunny Southern California to get us to do it.

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We take for granted what is there all the time-- and for us this time is year, that tends to be snow.

So it took Crazy Uncle Andy (my brother) visiting from Santa Barbara, where there is NEVER snow, to get us all excited about bundling up and playing outside. It's the same as how nobody in LA actually sees the Hollywood walk of fame unless their relatives are visiting from Oklahoma.

Anyway, we played with our new sled, made snow angels, and Andy and Brady built a snowman. I had my first real snowball fight (Andy is guilty of a few cheap shots, namely when I would turn around to make sure my kids weren't running into the street... and I also had to remind him not to hit me in my pregnant belly), and it was great. Zack kept managing to get snow in his gloves, so he and I didn't last all that long outside. Andy and Brady, on the other hand, were in it for the long haul.

Am I in a big hurry to spend 20 minutes bundling the kids so we can be cold anyway again? Not especially, and certainly not without an eager assistant like Andy (Brady is another story, and I'm sure he'll be dragging me outside soon). But at least we can say we've done it, and it was fun. It was a long time coming, but I feel like we just became a tiny bit more Nebraskan.

Just hey.

I'm just checking in with a quick hello.

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Zack says, "Hey girl, what's up. Wanna check out my closet?"

I have lots of updating to do, mostly Christmas-related. For now, however, I am rocking in a dark room with an almost 20-month-old who has decided that he would like to take the rest of his nap on top of me. I know I have precious little time left when he'll want to do this before he's all big and independent, so I'm letting him. It's not a half bad way to spend a piece of a Tuesday afternoon.

In other news:
-Brady now starts a good 70% of all him sentences with "Well, ya know..." I have no idea where it came from, but it's pretty funny.
-Zack has started really stringing together two and three word phrases in ways that are clearly intentional. My favorite so far-- "Mama, snack? Snack please? Mama, GET UP!" I'm sure that will lose its charm pretty quickly.
-Brady has discovered that turning on the charm can help him get his way. Lately, he'll put on his sweetest smile, use his best soft, non-demanding tone, and say "Oh Mommy! I was just thinking of a wonderful idea! How about you... (let me do playdoh, take me to the park, read me 17 books)?" He's fairly persuasive.
-My whole life got significantly better when Paul agreed to start coming upstairs at 5 instead of 6 so that he can play with the boys while I cook dinner. It turns out that having Zack literally scream and tantrum and throw himself at my feet for the entire hour was really getting me down. For whatever reason, he is a monster when I cook, and poor Paul was arriving to dinner every night to discover me on the edge of a nervous breakdown. This new arrangement has changed everything, and I swear I feel the ripple effects all day long. At exactly the same time, Brady decided to start getting up an hour or so earlier every morning so that Paul can make up the work time. He's so helpful.

2012 is going to be good. I can feel it.